One issue I've never ever dreamed that I would have is not having an appetite. It has been so unbelievable hard to eat and get fluids in. All those time I ever tried to help feed someone and said "oh come on...just a little more" ...let me tell you now..."I am so sorry".
So today is the day they said I should be feeling the worst. I'm trying not to give into it but it is a struggle. I'm not giving up yet...way to early for that...I'm determined to give this a good fight but I'm honestly suprised how quickly I got knocked down on my ass. I'm supposed to eat 100g of protein a day....do you know how hard that is? If anyone has any ideas or tips in how I can squeeze more in please feel free to share I am open to suggestions. I'm looking for small quantity that packs a lot of protein (not just powered stuff). I tried super hard yesterday and only got 33.5g in. I can't wait for the freaky issues with my sensitivity to cold go away so I can have a huge strawberry bananna shake, but it has to be cold, drinking warm milkshakes is just wrong.
Poor little guy woke up at 3:30am sick last night and I had to send Dad in for Puke Patrol...I just couldn't do it. I felt so bad not being able to be there for him, it really made me sad. He is such a brave boy though and understands that I have to be careful about getting sick because the medicine not only kills my "bad cells" but also destroys my good ones making me weak and easier to get sick. Still it's no fun not being able to take care of your only child when he needs you.
My Mom is coming over today to visit... so I'm hoping that alone will make me feel better. Of course she says she is going to come over to help clean, maybe do some laundry, just generally get things done around the house. So what have I been doing...yup..trying to clean and get things done around the house before she gets here. One of my "nursing" friends is also supposed to be coming over later on for tea on her way to work today which I'm really looking forward to as well.
Ohhh before I forget again too, I need to say thank you to my dear friend Kelli who helped make this blog look much better than I could have done on my own. Thanks so much Kelli for all of your beautiful design elements and for letting me use the laptop so I can travel/blog, which by the way is connected to the internet again thanks to my hubby.
Thats it for now...need to muster up the strength to actually go and eat something and take a shower. I have at least been drinking a Carnation Instant Breakfast while writing this, don't be too jealous..its 14g of protein :-)
Have a Great Weekened Everyone!!! Barbara
