I've been fortunate to hear from many friends from my past over the last few weeks with wonderful words of encouragement and support. It is so nice to hear from people. I have to say I'm surprised by the people I have not heard from, and I do mean surprised, not disappointed. I know everyone deals with things differently but I'm just surprised, people that you think you'll hear from you don't and people you maybe were not even thinking you'd hear from step up and are there for you. All and all I'm so lucky for the amazing people I have supporting me and my family.
I know I have cancer, but I still don't know when it is going to actually sink in. Its crazy how constant it is on my mind yet sometimes I still don't believe it. Then I'll be doing something normal...like when I'm scrubbing the toilet, and I think to myself really I'm scrubbing the toilet...I have cancer this seems wrong. But I guess someone has to do it :-)
This past week has been better than the week before even though I got sick twice. I think my tooth sometimes in hurting me more than anything else, I'm actually looking forward to my root canal on the 7th. I hope I can make it that long. Doing better eating and I have my second follow up with the oncologist tomorrow. Hoping I get good results from my blood work. Oh...if ever your wondering when I have my Dr appts usually if it is snowing...I have an appointment. Had one today but needed to cancel since school got out early.
Had to take little Paul for an MRI at Children's last week, trying to rule out some issues he has been having with his stomach. He has been having some issues for a few months now and has his own GI specialist but since my diagnosis we are being a bit more aggressive to get to the bottom of his issues. The MRI results all came back normal. Poor guy needs to start taking some acid reflux medicine, and then in 8 weeks have an endoscopy done. Now for those of you following along at home, eight weeks from now is approximately when I need to go in for my surgery. Paul's Dr. is going to work with us the best he can so that little Paul can have his endoscopy done before my surgery so I can be there for him. Yup just keep piling it on...we can take it.
I'm coming up on the two week mark for where it is possible for me to start loosing my hair. I must admit I'm nervous about it. I'm sure it will be fine once it is all gone just need to make sure I take care of it right away once it does start falling out. I'm nervous about eyebrows and eyelashes. I have a hard enough time helping fill-in what I have for eyebrows now, and I've never worn false eyelashes, may need some guidance putting them on. It will be an adjustment I'm sure. I worry about how my son is going to react. I'm sure he will be fine but I think he is concerned what other people will say or how his friends will react. When i ask him about loosing all my hair he says he thinks it's "creepy". Guess I'll have to work on that.
I'll keep you posted on my appt tomorrow...until then stay warm and safe.
XOXOX - B
