Hello Everyone,
Hope this post finds you all well. I wish I could say I hope your enjoying the wonderful spring weather we've been having but as you know rain, rain, rain. But of course it's raining and is going to rain all week, I've started phase 3 of my treatments. Just like before whenever I had to go into MGH and it was snowing now I've got the rain. Not complaining though, because I'm so glad that it is not snow anymore, rain I can handle.
So I started chemo and radiation yesterday (2 days down only 23 more to go). The question I'm being asked the most about Radiation is "does it hurt". It currently does not hurt at all. It's just like laying on a hard table and getting an x-ray. They've told me the side effects are accumulative so fatigue and nausea will get more substantial as I receive my treatments. I have radiation treatments 5 days a week so I'm putting some mileage on the old 4-Runner. I've also now been tethered to a chemo pump, 24 hours a day for 5 days a week. The "pouch" they gave me to carry it in was huge. Reminded me of the old school tape recorders, a big rectangular box. I've since upgraded and placed it in a fanny pack that I had lying around the house (see I always knew it would come in handy one day). It makes it a little bit easier to carry it around.
Eating is going as well as can be expected. I am noticing that my appetite is dwindling since being hooked up to my "leash" but I am trying to force myself to eat as much as I can.
I've made a promise to myself and my boys that moving forward I'm going to do my best to be as positive as I can be. Most of you know I'm a control freak so not being in complete control of what is going on with me and my health is a little bit difficult to deal with. So I'm going to try and control what I can...look into taking some yoga classes and perhaps meditation. Once the rains stops I'd like to get out and do some walking, let me know if your around and care to join me. Part of my being positive comes from knowing I have so many of you praying and pulling for me. Please know how much I appreciate it. I'm so very lucky that my life has been touched by so many of you. I've received so much kindness and caring, it's just amazing.
I AM SO GRATEFUL!
Until next time my friends - XOXOXOX
Barbara
