Whoa, posting this blog address to folks on FB opened some flood gates of love and support, what a remarkable feeling. It feels so weird to be on the receiving end of so much support and love and it is amazing, but at the same time it really plays with your head. Is everyone being nice to me because they think I’m going to die? I like to think that I always did my best to be a nice person but then you think there is no way I could have been nice enough to deserve all of this love from everyone. It’s becoming clear to me for sure that the psychological aspects of this disease are going to be just as much of a challenge, if not more, than the physical ones.
Once you tell people that you are sick or have cancer everything changes. I was the same way when someone I knew got sick. You don’t know what to say, you’re afraid you’ll say the wrong thing. Please know that I totally understand that, and unless it is some really off the wall comment I don’t want anyone to be afraid of talking to me or worried that that they will say the wrong thing. This is just as new to me as it is to you so I’m just as confused as to how to deal with stuff too. We’ll just have to muddle through together.
Good News - All bandages came off today!!
Barbara...after seeing you today I have been thinking of you. I am praying for you and your family. I am glad I met you and your family. I am also glad our sons are friends. They can get into trouble together. Liam and I would love for Paul to come over for a playdate so any time just let us know. Love Julie PS the blog is great!!
ReplyDeleteI hope nobody is being nice to you because they think you're going to die. Sometimes it just takes a huge slap in the face to remind you how much someone means to you. In my case, it was a reminder that I should tell you more often how special you are to me and how very much I appreciate your friendship in my life. Things I should have said all along, but forgot to for one reason or another. So, I love you. I can't wait to spend the next 60 years reminding you of that fact! You'll be wishing for the good old days when I left you alone soon enough :)
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